At the lowest point of our wedding planning, I laid on the floor of my apartment, face down, praying, chanting, "I am yours, save me. I am yours, save me." We were weighing the theological implications of a detail in the wedding liturgy. The decision was one among hundreds, but its implications were weighty.
We are the sum of our decisions. Thousand upon thousands of decisions, chiseling away at our souls, shaping our personhood. Every decision that I make today -- what I have for breakfast, which books I read to my children, every word I utter, how much time I sit, I stand, what I allow my eyes to see, the thoughts I allow in my mind, the minutes I waste -- they change me, little by little. With every decision, I am becoming and changing the person I will be tomorrow.
So, if you are wondering who you will grow up to be, look in the mirror. If you don't like what you see, change. Now. You are the sum of your decisions, including the ones you make today.
Our wedding day was the sum of many, many decisions. These decisions reflected who we were, what we loved, what we believed. If the wedding feast was a small world filled with our favorite things, the wedding liturgy was a space that embodied our theology of worship and marriage.
So, there I was, overwhelmed and defeated on the floor. I thought I was writing a wedding liturgy, but really, I was doing something so much bigger and I didn't even know it. I was forming my beliefs about God, worship, and marriage. I was asking big questions about timeless truths.
Figuring out our theology is hard, but living it out is even harder. Many throughout the history of the Church fought to their deaths for the sake of their creeds.
No, I did not die on my wedding day. Or did I?
baby sister is getting married, and she is asking me questions about
veils, songs, and such. These posts about weddings are my feeble
attempts at helping her from a distance. So, here goes.
Big idea number one: This is worship.
wedding has an audience of one. Not two, not three, not two hundred. Just one. You have nothing to prove to anyone else. So, breathe.
A wedding ceremony is primarily a worship service, where a bride and a
groom make vows to keep one another before God. Everything else is
Together, we respond to what God has done, what he is doing, what he will do. We give thanks, we
praise, we surrender, we submit, we repent, we rejoice under the Lord's
mighty hand. You have chosen to enter the front door of your happily
ever after -- worshiping God. And this is an awesome thing.
idea number two: A Christian wedding proclaims the Gospel. A Christian wedding is about the Gospel. The bride
and the groom point to something far, far greater than themselves. In
the words of
Apostle Paul: "'Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and
hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.' This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church."
Earthly marriages point to Christ and his bride. Christ
proposed not on bended knees, but with outstretched arms. Not with a
diamond ring, but with his shed blood for our sins. He
died in our place.
Christ, the groom, is waiting for his bride. He is our bridal garment of righteousness. He has made the aisle upon which we shall walk. He will come again to take us away to be with him. He will be our new home. There, he will wipe away every tear from our eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain.
I am yours, save me.
He saved me then.
He saves me still.
He will save me again.