Every now and then, usually around seasons of transitions and uncertainty, I get all worried about the future. In my head, I imagine myself standing before all these different paths, leaving me confused as to which of these paths to take. In my head, I imagine all these different options of where I would like to go, who I want to be.
I never seem to learn, because the truth is, there are only two paths.
The path wisdom
and the path of folly
The path of the righteous
and the path of the wicked.
And there are only two destinations.
Blessedness or Destruction.
Hans reminds me that God is always letting us know where he wants us to go, the question is whether I am listening.
Each day presents hundreds of little moments where I have to decide which path I want to be on.
Am I patient, or not?
Am I kind, or not?
Do I forgive, do I believe, do I love?
I would like to think that these hundreds of smaller moments are chiseling away at me, helping me to die little by little, in order that I may become that new creature who would know better the will of my Father.
I am grateful that I do not yet know what the Lord would have me do five/ten/fifteen years from now. Because the me of today would probably not like it, not understand it, rebel against it. Because I have not died enough. Because I have not lived enough.
So, until then, help me see the step immediately before me.
The night is dark, Lord, I need your light.