Friday, September 17, 2010

On Dark Chocolate

Welcome to my head.
I am about to let you in on a conversation I had with myself earlier today.

Oh no, oh no! Don't explode!
... *sigh*
Nooo! This is the second time in 10 minutes!
And why does it always have to be on the cute outfits?
Come on, let's change your diaper,... again.
Argh. More laundry to wash.
And I still have to vacuum...
I. Am. So. Tired.
I try and I try and I try.
And I fail.
*feeling reeeal sorry for myself*

Stop it. It's not that bad.

I can't! There is so much to feel bad about!

Stop whining.
Things can be a lot worse, you know.
Just think of the days when disposable diapers did not exist.
No washing machines.
No OxyClean.

How did they get rid of stains?

Think of people who live in the desert.
Women had to walk miles just to get pails of water!

Fine, fine. I get it. *sigh*

It's been a bad afternoon.
Let's have chocolate.

OK! *my heart smiled*

mmmm.... Dark chocolate with bits of sea salt.

*reading the label*
Yikes.100 calories for 2 squares?!
It's worth it.
Wow... Made in France?
Hans is such a sweet husband.

See? Things are not that bad.

OK, fine. Life is actually quite good.

*rolled my eyes* Drama queen.

~~~
“Have you realized that most of your unhappiness in life is due to the fact that you are listening to yourself instead of talking to yourself?... This self of ours -- Do not listen to him; turn on him; speak to him; condemn him; upbraid him; exhort him; encourage him; remind him of what you know, instead of listening placidly to him and allowing him to drag you down and depress you. For that is what he will always do if you allow him to be in control. The devil takes hold of self and uses it in order to depress us. We must stand up as this man did and say, “Why art thou cast down? Why are thou disquieted within me? Stop being so! Hope though in God, for I shall yet praise Him…" (Psalm 42:5)
- Martyn Lloyd-Jones, Spiritual Depression, p. 20, 21.

8 comments:

  1. wow thanks so much for this irene! :) I definitely need to remember to TALK to myself instead of always listening.

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  2. i guess this post should have been titled "The Whinings of a Woman in the First-World."
    Yikes.

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  3. Dark chocolate and sea salt? Seems like you really have a thing for sea salt. But I think I get it... I came across a snack suggestion of sea salt potato crisps dipped in dark chocolate, I tried it and it was not bad... not my first choice but still nice.

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  4. Serene -- a remnant of my pregnancy cravings. also, because i do not like things too sweet, a touch of salt with chocolate makes it not too sweet. (e.g. i put a pinch of salt when i make hot cocoa, chocolate cakes, and chocolate chip cookies) As for the chocolate of choice that day, Hans gave me a bar of "Lindt Dark Chocolate with a Touch of Sea Salt" when I was pregnant. I save it for special occasions. :D

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  5. thank you irene!!! this really helped me to remember to talk to myself instead of listening!!!
    ~tiffany~

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